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Saturday

Caught in an surreal world of emotions!

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I sit by anxiously waiting for 1pm to come when i can hug my best friend ever so tightly and tell her that i've missed her Heaps! Only she and mr s make me so excited over the slightest things.

You know my heart races every time at 11am in the morning on weekdays cos i know i'm an hour away to looking at my phone to find his msges in my inbox. How silly right? :) My heart literally flutters. I know it's silly to have crushes that always dont last any longer than when the excitement wears out and incompatibility surfaces. But still, i'm hopeful. You know just when you think , you are strong and mature and ready, when god provides someone for you to care for, more than you ever imagine... you suddenly realise, am i truly ready and prepared to give off my bruised , unchanged heart which i gave to a stud a few years ago, which i cant stop thinking of when i think of boys. I dont give off my heart easily esp when the moment decides for me that the other party is ready for me. I hate it when the status quo changes , because sometimes i want nothing more than to stay like whatever we are, enjoying the company. I'm super selfish but i dont see the point in giving off my heart when i know there's something lacking on my checklist. If you ask if i'm picky, i'll say yes. If you ask if i'm still waiting for my fairytale ending, i'll answer YES! So i hope that everyone else finds that someone to have fairytale endings with, just cos, we have to believe they exist! :D Be hopeful! Mr. s makes me feel super super happy, i wish he didnt have that stupid crush cos i want him all to myself! :D Tightly fitted under his arms, i want to find myself, engaged in his glance i want to find my eyes locked to his across the room, leaning on his chest i wish to find my arms locked around his manageable waist! Will my stallion gratify?

And then there's this girl i care so much for, which sometimes makes me wonder if ever i should have been a boy, i would have been the luckiest boy to have my bestie! She's really someone eh to many, and much more to me. :) :) No, i'm not a lesbian or anything, i have never thought of her more than friends but you know it's just the understanding we have, the proiritising each other first, and always falling back to each other that i enjoy so much about our friendship. She never fails to help me solve a problem, make me feel better about myself and yes help me with decisions, considering i can be indecisive most times. :) And i know she will always accept me, even when our waistline expands! :D

The author, the photographer is one of many talents, Jayen! Thank you for capturing us in our best moments!

May our friendship last till the very end, knowing i need you and you need me and i'll always be there for you, like a friend, like a sister! :D Welcome home jayen!

Building Bridges!

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Yesterday uncle mike and aunt theresa organised a bbq for the foreign PRCs and she invited tommy and I. Iva& Sean, Kathy&Kenji, Zenuo&his sis, Tohleng, Tigger&Colin and all the PRCs and leon joined us for a bit. I've made many new friends! I actually held a little-needed translated conversation with one guy for like 15mins! He's super nice to talk to and he's 20! haha Well I'm still trying my best to remember all their names. :) :) Alex cooked for us really nice china bbq-style food, with a good mix of veggies and meat. It was really a new experience for us SGcitx, both young and old. I've got to experience a new culture and a new taste of bbqing and it was super good and NON-CARBON filled! Seriously, he cooked it in such a way, none of the food got black-burnt! :) Whoosh! You know a lot of them come here because there's like 1.3 Billion people in China, overpopulated! haha And yesterday i found out they think very highly of sg. :) :) They chose here cos they said that here, we speak both english and chinese, which they only get to learn in high school as a subject. (china gov starting to implement for them to learn english in primary school) So hey, if they can think positive of us, why cant we do the same? There's is more that we can be , if not competitiors for grades, top positions in school and jobs. If we make friends with them, then it'll really just be two friends who've graduated from school applying for the same job with similar credentials. I mean you wont hate your friend for getting the job that you didnt. You'd be happy for them eh? As i try more to get to know them better as friends, i hope to encourage everyone to do the same. There are some things we cant change, but the things we can are the attitudes of our minds and for everything else, work harder and all. There's such thing as a reason for everything, a time for everything! :D Be a friend today! What a way to spend a public holiday! Doing meaningful things!

BOWL ME AWAY!
Oh and yesterday ohana spent a day bowling together! HAHA Can you imagine that the last time we last bowled was like.... eons ago! And it was super fun! I build my score up from 76 to 113 then after that, i got 50! HAHAHA Hand went limb and weak eh! It was actually an outing not only for ohana but with papa's friends too, 3 families, two lanes. So fun to meet his friends and get to know their kids and mingle and talk and bowl together. I love ohana time like this! The food and company was great! May we all continue to have healthy bodies! :D

Thursday

Life is so happy, it's LASTING!

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First things first, before one can be happy, he or she has to feel so gdamn unhappy! So here I am emotionally constipated due to the lack of freedom to text because my phone is so not user-friendly cos it has so little memory space and I cant share stories or communicate effectively with my contacts. Ugh! Stupid phone. And the camera is like 1.3 mp which is like ancient and like so super UGH! I need a new phone, waiting and counting down to the 29th of nov when i can finally get a new phone! :D Any advice on phones? Hopefully i'll get a good buy! :D Saw the samsung f480i which cost $48. I like it a lot (see display above). Let me know what you think okay?

-bestie is back!
-mr S is back!
- Noelle is back!
-Book launch on 21st NOV!
My church has published a cookbook tying in with the church anniversary this weekend! :D Inside there are about 50 recipes, 15 inspirational stories. I read all of it- one thing i brought out of the book was that people overcome adversity and self-consciousness with time and practice, people change when god intervenes in their lives- people with bad choices start to make good ones. (: God is working in our lives everyday, sometimes we wont feel it, we definitely wont see it so yeah we got to put on FAITH, HOPE and LOVE! (: (: Jtoh showcased his talent with making kickass videos with some nice transition effects. He mixed it with nice clips, getting the most out of everyone in church to make us feel like we belong when we see our face up there (HAHA) and jo showcased his rocker moves and his own composed new single. The whole concert was performed and written by each individual singer and yeah it was nice that many could appreciate their hardwork in the kitchen and in the recording studio! WHAT A SUPER TALENTED BUNCH OF CHURCHIES young and old we have here! :D God gives his people talents and gifts to be used in service. Giving not to perform for men but to share with men that this is what god had done for them, every song so personal! :D I've seen many happy things happen, miracles to take leave and also to see the whole thing through. I've seen not so happy things, like all the accidents. So just cos this book took THAT MUCH TO get published and done, all the cracking brains to think of a signature dish to represent, all the sleepless nights thinking of stories to share, all the late night caffeine pumping to stay awake to edit and write, all the angulated wonderful pictorial montage PUT TOGETHER. JUST COS OF WHAT WENT IN IT... YOU SHOULD BUY THE BOOK! (: (: I want to help my church SELL BOOKS! (: I hope to sell at least 20 before I leave sg! While stocks last. Sample copy for browsing with me, so here's also a chance for us to meet eh! (: (: Cost= sgd25 nett!

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SHOUT OUT! DUNE DOLL, thanks for making time for me and watching the super scary movie with super loud by cool effects! What a christmas show to rmb eh! 3 spirits, one changed fella! (: (: The power of entertainment and a touch of letting go and living life to the fullest everyday! (: (:

SOUNDTRACK OF THE WEEK, everyone in love by JLS! xfactor produces great winners! :D

Sunday

YOUTUBE HAS TALENT!

I totally enjoyed the songs that both guys displayed. I like a man who can hit a range that even girls cant. Something special eh? :D Well Enjoy ya! Youtube has talent! Do you agree?

Saturday

Glee - Don't Stop Believe

Uploaded by Bugabookas. - Classic TV and last night's shows, online.

I've found a new passion, a new thing. You know I needed something to recharge me from routine and the loss of business in giving tuition and burying myself in doing things just so i would never have to be alone. I'm terrified and embarrassed just having to sit alone by myself to have lunch. Face value and pride is something so prominently impt to me. haha

I dont really have a very good relationship with my mother. I mean we love each other a lot lot just that we dont really love each other the way we feel most loved, according to our love languages. I've been through many years of trying and accommodating and i'm sure she has given in many times as well.

Today I was about to go to the polyclinic near my home to get my inoculations in preparation for my trip to cambodia in 2 weeks. I woke to mummy ironing to clothes. I asked her if she wanted to go with me, but she said she needed to rest too and so i left the home by myself at 8am. Sitting restlessly outside my isolated waiting area, it was one more him then my turn. Then suddenly mummy comes walking to me. You know what she said when i asked her why she came? She said, "I came over cos it dawn on me that you were scared of injections. I didnt bring my hp so when i got home, I also saw this text, "take a deep breath, look elsewhere and keep breathing, cos it's easier. "

I cant tell you how much your parents love you even when they dont show it the way we are taught love is supposed to be shown from the bible/ books/ tv/ movies/ based on relationships with our friends and relatives. But every once and when it is most impt, they somehow are always there for us. I cant express how touched I am that my mother came down for me. I'm sure there is something that your parent/ parents have done for you that you can thank God for, sometimes it may even be giving you allowance knowing that you need money to hang out with your churchies. Be thankful cos no matter how much you hate them, you'll still miss them when they are gone. :) :)

plus, I've found a new tv drama serial to follow- Glee, I like how it's inspirational, making people follow their dreams, stand up for themselves to believe you have something to offer that no one else can. We all want to stand out, we all want to make a difference, maybe after this we'll know eh. Follow along so we'd have something to talk about, get excited about and yeah just enjoy the songs if for nothing else. :) :) HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!

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