second chances. 

i feel like God is giving me a second chance to undo the things that i made wrong of. ive undone some things and i hope they are the things God wants me to change. because of bsf i think about questions and seek for the answers to the topics they ask of me and my friends. we did a lot today and discussed a lot today and i felt really stupid sharing some answers cos someone said they were innocent stuff. in my deepest conviction i really felt like it really was something God wanted me to share and be honest about you know.

i listened today to a parent who told me the reason her daughter isnt coming to church is because she feels that people force her to share. on one hand i believe it is with good intentions that the teacher asks these questions. cos for people like me, sometimes we can become ignorant to the fact that some questions need answers to the reason for things , why things happen, why things have to be a certain way. on the other hand, it also can be very stressful for people, to share how they truly feel and also make them feel like they've been heard, make them feel that no answer is wrong and lead them to feel appreciated for contributing because it took a lot of effort to even say it aloud. i pray now for this friend of mine that she will find in her heart the forgiveness to the approach that made her feel uncomfortable. i pray also that from now on, people would be more sensitive to other people's feelings and such. it was a good 5mins i feel, listening.

my life has been lived for myself from the beginning. ive never really felt that ive given up too much for God. now i am cruising along doing things my way, hoping that it is God's will for my life. someone spoke to me about the dangers of hell a while back. and i felt a little serious and scared inside that there might also be a possibility that i might not make it to heaven even though i call out "Lord, Lord."


a year has past now and all i remember of it was working hard for my education and my studies and foregoing things i used to like to do for the sake of the future. the future in which i am reminded is temporal and possibly worthless not precious. die luh.

what do i have to give up to save my eternal soul?
what changes do i have to make in order that i might glorify God here with my time on earth?


felt inspired today to share about my thoughts and hope to God that he hears my silent plea for his guidance and leading towards a better life lived out for him, from this day forth, now and forevermore, till i see Jesus again, and hopefully he will welcome me into the gates of heaven, to the afterlife, the life after my physical death.

Quotable Quote

“Joy learns that the key to the affection of family and friends is being worthy of it,.. ”
―Diane Meier

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Today is the third day. Recording: inner 3 leaves seem to be showing signs of overwatering (yellowing of leaves). The leaves feel wet to touch (like how a soaked A4 size paper feels to touch). Thing is: all i did today was spray, didnt even use cuppas. haha The other leaves were crisp to touch and looked waxy, like how it was three days ago.

My girl, XX is feeling a little spotty today. I found 3 white spots on her leaves (orions's belt on her leaf) :(( super sad. I hope they dont hurt her. I will wake up early to check on her. I pray to God that she survive the night unharm. :))

Mealy bug has a friend now. I spotted another one today. I hope the shifting didnt hurt them or push them to where they didnt want to go. :D So that's good. I thought he was alone. :)) praise God . We all need friends. Insects do too.

Well today the family was good. Pizza. Strawberries. Cheesecake. HAHA Tmr i hope we get to rent bicycles or blades. It'd be fun. hee :)) I hope the weather would be good and God will be with us when we gather to witness together the immersion of souls into the deep waters of the nile river. HAHA cheers!

Jenna Mourey > Quotes > Quotable Quote

“Don't sit around and fucking complain to the rest of us how no one wants to buy you fucking shoes and clothes and give you a free ride for life because you have tits and a vagina, unless you wanna be treated like a pair of tits and a vagina.”
― Jenna Mourey

 

no i dont just wanna be the girl with the nice Back. 

dl always makes me feel like im a part of something. he tracks my progress and he remembers what i tell him (years ago) i like that about JJ too :) for someone like me who cant, its something i admire in a friend. something to work for, a new thing to learn and master and try to be good at. i only want to achieve things while i have my sight and the other five senses.

also, God has been so great recently he has made all my dreams come true for me. and he has loved me unconditionally. for my twentyfourth birthday i got myself (THIS) (insert picture). ive not decided on a name for it but maybe after one of my dolls? HAHA

kaythanks to the gardener who prepared it for me. Actually i didnt really get what i want but i think this is good also too. *Trying not to think about it cos i really wanted the other two ferns. HAHA* focus on the positive* He helped me choose the pot. He helped me to match which shady ferns would go nice with my plant. :)) I LOVE IT!!! :)) Happy birthday hannah! The money that my aunties gave me for my birthday went to buying myself something nice! HAHA :)) Say whatever i dont care. I love it very much! I hannah L promise to love it unconditionally, to water it when it needs water, everyday if the soil is dry, to change the soil once every 10 months as the gardener suggested. I LOVE YOU XX :))